Is this all there is? The most terrifying question. The realization that what you know is true is apparent yet you dread facing it.
You have nothing to want for – no fears, no uncertainty, no lack of basic human necessities. But why is it not enough? It’s never enough, and you’re no less empty than before.
There will be no montage about how you achieved a meaningful life and a purpose to pursue. The loneliest times may be replaced with yet lonelier times – maybe friendship is but an addiction that you tell yourself is a distraction.
What are ambitions if you know they become meaningless as soon as they are attained?
In theory, you have the complete freedom to pursue any path to fulfillment that you are inclined towards. In reality, you are locked within the iron bars of the cycle of human success, forever trying to inch upwards onto an ever rising totem pole that is nothing but a figurative reminder of how you are inept in comparison to the ones above you.
There appears to be no other way to success as defined by the world we live in.

Then comes the realization that you have to stop blaming the world for not letting you be happy. Nobody is pushing you down: they just don’t care. Why do they have to? You aren’t anything special, just as you believe they aren’t.
Maybe happiness is not meant to be, and resenting those who have no obligation towards you will only eat you alive.
You will not let yourself be happy until you understand what that means for you. You wish you understood why you don’t know your purpose. You can’t accept that your life isn’t contributing to any greater good. How can you have dreams if you have yet to learn how to be satisfied with what you are and to appreciate your own worthiness? Justifying why you can’t be happy and telling yourself there’s nothing you can do about it, therefore you mimic the dreams of others and pursue the goals that society looks upon as prestigious to solidify the image of success, forcing yourself to think it’s what you want until maybe you’ll believe it. Why do you think faking fulfillment will help you discover what is worth living for in life? You can’t wait for it to come to you. What if your life ends before you ever knew its value?